Life takes a hold of us in strange and weird ways at times, when we least expect it too...
We lay our passions down as we make way for happenings that cannot be avoided.
This year has been one of doing just that,
What I have learned most this last year?
A life time of broken pieces cannot stay laying on the bedroom floor....
Sooner or later when I am ready, and not before,......
A loving God comes and tenderly, ever so gently, takes each piece.
He so very carefully, masterfully, takes His healing ointment ,
A balm of forgiveness, bathes and refreshes.
Till all the fragments of my past are understood, and validated...
Now I see,
with fresh washed eyes,
A glorious light that shines
through this many faceted stained glass window of my heart...
With the most beautiful colours from heaven......
Lord lead me to paint, as I have been so barren,
without creativity or passion....
A new season has begun!!!!
Today I spent time organising some quick 30 min pastel sketches for an art tutorial I have been asked to do. I want to make it as fun as I can with as much variety as we can accomplish during the day.
Here is my first, a Veniatian street scene with of course, some water added :)
Pastesl are a great versatile medium, and the vibrant colours sing harmoniuosly together.
What really makes this picture resignate is the mixture of complimentary colours ( blue / orange, red / Green) along side the warm and cool colours.
The pastel was gently dragged over the paper, which is an aubergine coloured sanded paper. This effect allows for the warm aubergine colour to show through, creating wonderful effects .
Yesterday I discovered my painting was not selected in the portrait prize, they had 130 entries and only 53 were chosen. That is dissapointing but not depressing :) I am not worried about not being chosen ,dissapointing is easily resolved with a good attitude which says "next year we try again" but sometimes dissapointment can be difficult to overcome when you are already depressed and feeling crushed with circumstances in life...
Finding inner peace is a gift from a loving God who has all the peace we ever need. Circumstances in life have stopped me from finding this peace and I have been so busy with living , this has been a downward spiral to deep depression.
Life is incredibly too precious to let depression overcome you, at times it is very difficult, and even engulfing.
As my beautiful grandma used to say "Even this will pass"
I have no idea what the future holds
But God does.
The answer to finding this peace is precious
Taking walks in the bush and sitting amongst the trees to hear the beautiful music of nature and animals.
Walking along the sands of the beach and feeling the tide wash over and tickle your toes.
Laying on the grass on a day with ultramarine skies and white fluffy clouds, looking into the depth of the atmosphere which one can only try to imagine goes on forever and ever.
Sitting at my easle, the one I love so much as it holds another canvas . I cannot explain the feeling you experience when all the world is null and void and all you are aware of is the beautiful array of colours on a palette, waiting to be formed and shaped into the picture I see with my own eyes.
Today for the first time in months I sat at my piano, my poor darling piano that at one time had her keys lovingly caressed. Once again I sat and let my self dissapear in the music I love so much, the melody of healing and peace.
Stop, and listen, meditate on the good in life,
and all that God our Father has in store for those of us who love Him.
Working more; Updates so far, still moving along without a specific plan, just having a feel for the painting and John's personality as I paint this. So far so good. I have been working down from top to bottom, Johns arms are the next on the list and as you can see I have a big sploge of terrible makeup looking skin colour on his right bicep, lol, sorry John......
More of a close up. This background was fun as it was mostly experimental. I have been scumbling colours over the canvas and today I glazed extra colours over the scumble. It has given a really cool stained glass window effect. It is fun to experiment and have a win instead of a lump of yukky mud!! :)
I am really excitted that finally there is a local portrait prize . Lismore Regional Gallery is hosting the Northern Rivers portrait prize. All entries are due by late Feb, and I have just put paint to canvas so I am really on a mission to finish my portrait and enter!!!
My entrant is a guy I have known for about 20 years, John Gift!! He is an inspirational singer songwritter with a powerful message of hope. More about this later as I need to upload some pics and head out to my easel this Sunday arvo and paint!
First stages , Toning my canvas with burnt umber, transfering my sketch , and blocking in the face with Burnt Umber and Prussian blue.
Some portrait artists have everything all mapped out, at this stage I am getting a feel for colours and deciding which way I will take this, more spontanious. Getting a feel for Johns personality and trying to portray this which is great as I saw him perform thismorning. Excellent !!
" The Enjoyable Afternoon " a decent
amount of time spent painting, and I have managed to paint as planned, spontaniously and capturing the personality of John.
Since I have known him , he has been a man with a passion for reality and truth.He has survived a very traumatic past involving drugs and alcohol with a beautiful attitude of love and acceptance. . His music on his latest CD was recorded live at the
Windsome Hotel in Lismore in honour of the many people who struggle to make ends meet, "The Soupies" who are regular dinners at the soup kitchen. It is an excellent CD .
This is my process, Johns face is only blocked in with burnt umber and will really pop out when I start to add colour. Right now it is blendind in with the back ground too much. He is holding his guitar, with both hands, which gives a very strong bond, with himself and the music he loves to play.
This is Stevie, a friend of mine from Scotland who is a pastor.
He likes to take walks to this special place to pray. I loved what this picture stood for and had to paint !
It is a reminder to me that I need to spend more time in prayer. Life has a way of capturing us and we stray from the most important aspects of daily living. Through God alone we find peace and a reason for living. I need to remember this more each day and take that time to spend in prayer.